Title: Little Monster [English ver.]
Author: Riz Aino
Pairing: KyuWook (KB + Nine) (OnlyOneOf)
Classification: NC–17
Genres: AU, smut, pwp
Word count: 3.4k
Summary: KyuBin has to fight every day
against himself and against all the temptations that WookJin puts in front of
him.
Warnings: conflicts of faith, mention of
devil's temptations and explicit sexual content.
Notes: looking at the lyrics to Red
Velvet IRENE & SEULGI's song Monster, I thought that I could do something
inspired by them, and as soon as I had that thought, this started to come to
life.
Author's comment: at the beginning I
only had the idea, but I didn't have a ship for it but when I thought about
which one would be the best for the story, I couldn't get these two out of my
head. I hope you like it.
Little
Monster
(English ver)
For
this is the will of God, your sanctification: that you abstain from sexual
immorality; that each one of you know how to control his own body
in
holiness and honor, not in the passion of lust…
1
Thessalonians 4:3-5
(La
voluntad de Dios es que sean santificados; que se aparten de la inmoralidad
sexual; que cada uno aprenda a controlar su propio cuerpo de una manera santa y
honrosa, sin dejarse llevar por la pasión de la lujuria…
1
Tesalonicenses 4:3-5)
KyuBin had spent
several years preparing his body and soul to be closer to God. He had always
had problems with it because, despite being determined to fulfill the promise
he had made to the divinity when his mother had ended up waking up after a long
coma after an accident, his body and mind were too weak and many times he had
found himself in situations where he had been able to get away from the
temptations of the devil with great difficulty. He always had, nevertheless. He
had always been able to get away from all the temptations that the devil had
put in his way and from all those experiences he had learned something and had
become stronger with each one of them little by little... although he was still
too weak and in that summer camp that his congregation organized, he was being
put to the test by one of the boys who were attending.
Jung WookJin… the
embodiment of the devil and sin.
From the first day,
when the boy had entered the room that they were going to share during those
two weeks, he had known that he was going to have a bad time and that he was
going to have to use all his abilities so that when they returned home he
didn't have to go to some distant church, where no one knew him, to confess for
the sins he had committed. The boy was very handsome, very nice, he had a
worked body that provoked envy and desire and, furthermore, he had made it
clear from the first moment that he wasn't there because he wanted to, like the
others. He wasn't there in that camp to get closer to God or to cleanse or
purify his soul and his body... he had gone there forced by his family. That
was what he had told him as soon as he entered the room and threw himself on
one of the beds. His parents, upon learning that he was gay because they had
caught him sleeping with a guy one day when they had arrived home earlier than
planned, had sent him there to reflect on his actions and communicate with God,
but he had no intention to do so. In that same moment, KyuBin knew that he had
found his greatest temptation and his downfall.
He had indeed gone to
that camp to find himself closer to God, to try to communicate with him and to
find the strength that he still lacked to be able to follow the path that had
been marked in his life, the path of taking God's hand. He did want to take
advantage of those weeks to purify his soul and body and seek an inner peace
that he could not find in the capital. However, with WookJin there, KyuBin knew
that he was going to have to focus all of his energies on not falling into
temptation and sin with the boy... and he hadn't been wrong.
It had only been one
of the two weeks that they had to be in that place and KyuBin had felt every
second of that week that the demon was tempting him, testing him, taking the
form of Jung WookJin. Every place he went, there was the boy, smiling
charmingly at him, approaching, sticking to his body, talking to him about a
thousand and one things that KyuBin had no idea about and, above all, flirting
with him whenever he could, even creating opportunities for it. During all the
time that he had tried to follow God's commands, he had never had such a
difficult test to overcome and every day, every hour, every minute, every
second that he spent with WookJin, he felt that his mind was becoming more and
more and weaker, wanting to fall into the temptation that the boy supposed.
Because WookJin was
handsome, very handsome. He had dark, almost black eyes, a long nose, and lips
that seemed too soft to him. More than once and more than twice, KyuBin had
surprised himself looking at those lips with desire, especially when the boy
put lipbalm on them because in those moments it was when he most wanted to know
what it was that he felt when kissing him, what it was the taste of those lips.
He always ended up regaining his sanity, he always dismissed all the obscene
thoughts that crossed his mind when the boy was next to him, when he flirted
with him or when he simply winked at him. KyuBin reminded himself that he had
come to that place to find the peace that the city didn't allow him to find and
thus communicate better with God. He had gone there to be able to fulfill the
goal that he had set and he had to be strong for it.
Turning away from sin
was too difficult for him. Not attending to the demands of that little demon
that had crossed his path was almost impossible... but KyuBin tried and
tried... until he could no longer contain himself from falling into that
temptation called Jung WookJin.
It was late at night
when they were finally released from the activities of that day and most of the
participants of that camp decided to simply go back to their rooms. KyuBin, who
had been feeling hot all day, due to the increase in temperatures that week and
WookJin being particularly insistent with him that day, decided that taking a
shower was the best thing to do, so he grabbed his toiletry bag. He left the
room when he returned and went to the common showers there, getting into the
last of all because he had the beginning of an erection and he was going to
spend a good time under the cold water until it came down and he didn't want
any of the attendees would pass by and wonder what was keeping him so busy to
take so long to get out of there. At least that had been his plan, but his plan
was truncated by WookJin.
KyuBin had barely entered the shower and had
closed that opaque glass door, taking his things from his toiletry bag to
shower, when it was opened and the boy entered through it, completely naked and
with a mischievous smile that caused a chill in KyuBin. However, once the
initial surprise passed, a growing anger was what he began to feel.
"What are you
doing here?" He asked him, barely a whisper because he didn't want anyone
in the showers to hear him; however, in that whisper he turned all the anger
that he had in those moments.
"I wanted to
shower", WookJin replied, shrugging as if nothing, but with a wild gleam
in his black eyes.
"There are dozens
of free showers", KyuBin replied, noticing how anger kept building in him
because the boy was doing this to torture him, conscientiously, knowing it was
causing things in him that he shouldn't feel because they were both guys.
"Get out!", he hissed, hoping that that way the other would get out
of there.
"I wanted to
shower with you", WookJin replied, as if that clarification was enough to
stop KyuBin from being pissed off, but all it did was make it worse.
WookJin moved closer
to his body, still looking at him up and down, with that mischievous smile that
invited him to sin with him, turning on the tap so that the shower water began
to fall on them. KyuBin could see how the boy licked his lips when the water
began to go down his body and, for a second, he forgot his anger and felt proud
because his worked body was awakening an absolute desire in the one in front of
him, but it was only a second, because the moment the boy raised his right hand
to reach his arm and touch his muscle, it came back. Quickly, he pulled
WookJin's hand away, grabbing his wrist and pinning his arm against the shower
tiles.
"WookJin, go
away", he hissed again. "Or I won't take responsibility for my
actions", he threatened.
KyuBin thought that by
telling him that, the boy would finally walk away from him and get out of the
shower, but he was completely wrong with his prediction. His words not only
didn't scare WookJin enough to get him out of there, but on top of that they
caused the sparks in his gaze to become even more savage and, with the hand
that was not held by KyuBin, he took the opportunity to grab him by the waist
to stick him to his body, causing that there wasn't a single centimeter between
them and then whisper to him in a provocative way.
"I would love to
see it".
Actually, WookJin was
the incarnate demon that had come there to put him to the test and KyuBin was
very fed up with that situation, so he decided that that night he should teach
the boy a lesson, a lesson that neither of them would forget because it would
be a stain in his life, a stain that as much as he wanted to rub it away, never
would go away, but he had already run out of options. That place was not the
most suitable either because at any moment someone could appear and surprise
them, but KyuBin couldn't bear it anymore and between the anger and what had
been accumulating inside him in recent days due to the boy in front of him, he
ended acting shameful.
KyuBin took with his
free hand the one with which WookJin had grabbed his waist and brought it over
his head, to make it rest next to the other, held against the tiles, to
immobilize it and, right after, he leaned forward to take his lips with his in
a wild and desperate kiss. It had been a long time since KyuBin kissed anyone,
since he had made that promise and at first, he had to pick up the rhythm, he
had to get used to the sensation of other lips moving against his, soft, but
firm, demanding, wanting even more than KyuBin gave. WookJin's lips moved over
his, his tongue sought his without any shame, unlike him, the boy was more than
used to kissing and KyuBin finally had to break the kiss before it was too
late, too late, and end up getting lost in it.
Moving away from those
lips that invited him to sin, moving away from WookJin's face enough that he
couldn't follow his movement and continue with the kiss. An expression of
disgust appeared on the boy's face because he probably wanted to continue with
the kisses, but KyuBin wanted to end it as soon as possible, before anyone
could see them there. He introduced his left hand between their bodies, going
down the boy's stomach, noticing that he was quite worked up, brushing with his
fingertips the boy's muscles until he reached the area of his crotch, where he
immediately took his member and began to touch it. He had never touched another
guy's penis and hadn't touched his for too long, but he knew what he was supposed
to do, he remembered perfectly how and where to touch for pleasure and WookJin
seemed to be very sensitive to his touch.
It was strange. It was
too weird to be touching another guy, but deep down, KyuBin felt he was
enjoying himself. He enjoyed how each touch, made WookJin have different
reactions and KyuBin was even proud to be provoking those reactions in him. The
way the boy was biting his lower lip, hard, trying to make no sound escape from
his mouth, understanding perfectly where they were and that he couldn't make a
noise if he didn't want anyone to discover them; the way his eyes closed with
pleasure; the way those dark eyes, when they were open, looked at him
sparkling, wanting much more, wildly... all that made KyuBin feel good, as if
what he was doing in those moments wasn't against the divine laws he had tried
to abide in the last years of his life. And even though he was strange, even
though he wasn't acting like he should and was doing something that he would
regret as soon as he fully regained consciousness, KyuBin couldn't stop
touching WookJin.
The boy was getting
harder, and it was harder for him to maintain his composure, every time he was
panting much harder, not being able to breathe normally, correctly. He was
gasping for air and was opening his mouth, slightly moaning. However, KyuBin
couldn't let anyone discover them. The water kept running over them, dulling
most of the sounds WookJin made, but not enough. For this reason, KyuBin ended
up releasing WookJin's arms that he was still holding against the tiles so that
he could bring his hand to the boy's mouth, drowning any sound that he might
make against his palm. However, WookJin's eyes locked onto his, narrowed, his
brow furrowed, angry. KyuBin was also angry, angry with the boy because he
hadn't stopped until they were in this situation and, therefore, he was doing
this; however, the boy didn't seem happy with the way he was silencing his
moans. WookJin's tongue wet the palm of his hand and KyuBin withdrew his hand
from his mouth reflexively, immediately afterwards, WookJin's hands immobilized
his face, grabbing him, then approaching him and planting a new kiss on his
lips, desperate, full of gasps and breaths, of moans that were drowned in
KyuBin's mouth as he didn't stop moving his hand against the boy's member,
enveloping him, touching it with his fingertips, seeking to leave him on the
edge of the abyss.
A small tremor in his
member and the complete immobility of his mouth against his were the initial
indicators of WookJin's orgasm just before it occurred, coming between them, in
their stomachs, releasing a weak moan that was drowned out by the KyuBin's
mouth. Chills began to run through his body and he grabbed onto KyuBin's
shoulders to hold on, lost in the pleasure he had just experienced. With the
boy's member still in his hand, slowly deflating, KyuBin's mind began to race,
regaining consciousness.
He immediately pulled
away from WookJin's body, slamming against the other tiled wall of the narrow
shower, causing the boy to lose his support and fall to his knees.
KyuBin couldn't believe
what he had just done. He had just succumbed to sin, he had just masturbated
WookJin in the common showers, where everyone could see them simply because his
behavior throughout the week had had him on the edge of the abyss and he had
not been able to contain his most primitive instincts. He had strayed from the
path that he had chosen, he had strayed from God with that simple action and in
his consciousness it was going to seal his whole life. Because nothing he had
done in recent years had been of any use, because nothing he had tried to
achieve was going to be able to come true after being consumed by carnal
pleasures, besides with another man.
He had to get out of
there immediately. He had to leave that place, from that camp to which he had
gone to purify himself, but in which he had ended up falling to the second of
the circles of Hell, where those who had succumbed to lust went, with their
soul condemned by all the eternity for not having stopped in time. He could
have left when WookJin had entered the shower, after making his intentions
clear, he could have taken a deep breath and walked away from him... he could
have done so many things before falling into the temptation of that little
demon, but he hadn't done anything of that.
"KyuBin
hyung…" WookJin whispered, pulling him out of his thoughts.
KyuBin looked down,
finding the boy gasping for air, but his eyes shining as if he had just had the
most incredible moment of his life. For a second, he couldn't help but think
that it was he who had left WookJin completely weak after having made him
climax, weak, satisfied, with a barely contained desire that didn't finish
appeasing, in his gaze, a look that completely disarmed it. That brought him
back to reality again and he knew that he had to get out of there, this time he
had to get away from him so as not to fall into that temptation again.
"KyuBin
hyung", WookJin whispered again, making an effort to get up from the
slippery shower tray. Almost without thinking, he reached out his hand and
helped him up. "Don't think, don't think... just do what you want to do
and don't live a life where you can't do what you want most..."
The boy's words fell
on him like a jug of cold water. He had tried for the last several years to
live up to that promise he had made, trying to get away from the wrong path and
simply being as correct as possible, following God's commands to the last point
and the last comma. He had walked away from anything he wanted to make him sin
and he had done it so that he would never feel guilty again because his mother
had ended up in that accident because of him, because he had been straying from
the right path. Everything he had done since then had been for both of them,
but everything had been ruined by WookJin in that week, with his flirting and with
his words a few moments before... because it was true, he hadn't been living in
recent years.
KyuBin sighed deeply.
His body and mind had always been weak, he had known it from the first moment,
but he had tried it, he had tried with all his might to fulfill the promise he
had made to God and finally he hadn't been able to do anything at all. He had
only ended up falling into the most absolute of temptations when he had been on
the verge of reaching heaven. And now he felt good, calm, after realizing that
he hadn't breathed easy since he had made that promise, he hadn't been himself
and he wanted to live again.
Final notes:
—The author is sorry to have written another story with this type of
moral and faith dilemmas, it really wasn't even going to be part of the
collection at first, but I couldn't resist because it matched so perfectly with
the theme that it was necessary to do it.
—The second circle of hell I speak of is the one described by Dante in
the Divine Comedy, in case you want to know what the thing is about.
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